craps.

You ever felt that you have some sort of amnesia? like he was your accident and he inflicted amnesia to you everytime he comes back to say he already changed and he still loves you?

and since you have amnesia, all you ever imagine and think of now is all your happy moments, way before he cheated on you, broke your heart to pieces, made you feel shitty and unappreciated.

and then you are happy…

to be back with him..

thinking this was the one you’ve been waiting for..

that the moment you pray for every night has come..

but

everytime he comes back again to his normal asshole self, you would get this fragments of bad memories, almost like a distant dream, that he hurt you, he cheated on you, he made you feel like shit and that he didnt even bothered to consider your feelings for the sake of getting what he wants.

and you would forget it. thinking its just an illusion, a daydream of your fear.

and you continue, understanding him and loving him even though you feel unappreciated as he shows you his asshole self everyday.

but then, as he continuously reveal to you his usual normal asshole self, you suddenly remember, that all those happy thoughts were illusions of the past. you have been awaken from your amnesia.

you must remember, he will never change. never go back to what broke you.

because someone who broke you to pieces, will never be the same person who can fix you back. he will continue to destroy you as long as you give him the power to do so.

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(Source: feelingsfrommoviesandseries, via 0riginal)

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